What was I thinking?

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Help me, I'm drowning!

It's the end of the semester, next week is final exam week AND final grades week, I'm flying solo, and everyone needs shit done NOW!

I continue to work with the "8 to 4 and out the door" mentality as I cannot bring myself to care enough to stay until things get done. If they don't get done, they don't get done. The Division VP and his cronies made the decision to leave my staff position out front vacant, without giving me the benefit of consultation, and having done so behind closed doors. I've been flying solo for nearly two years now.

I refuse to stay one minute past quitting time, which has left some of the faculty with knots in their knickers but I continue to suggest to them that they call and complain -- not to me, but to the decision makers.

I'm frustrated and just can't get myself to give two shits about anything other than when I'm taking the next day off, or how close the weekend is. While I'd like to kid myself into believing that, as long as I'm here, I'm giving 100%, I think the reality is that, if you're not happy with your job, you sure as hell aren't giving 100%.

Lisa has similar frustrations at work and, while I'm pretty much locked into my job, she's not with hers. She applied at the Home Depot (three stores) night before last. We did the math and, if she doesn't have to drive halfway across the county to work, she can make $2/hour less than she does right now, and still break even. It's a good incentive to aggressively pursue other employment.

I say I'm locked into my job because I figure I'm officially at the age where I'm too old to get a new job and be able to expect any sort of meaningful retirement benefit from it. While the mandatory participation in the state retirement program ended this month for me, my employer still contributes to my retirement. Hard(er) to walk away from than someone in Lisa's position, making hourly wages just above what my son makes at the garden center, no raises in 5 years, health benefits cut in half, and no contributions to her profit sharing plan in the past 5 years. If she walks away, she's 100% vested in just over $3000 for eight years' worth of loyal dedication. That's not even enough to pay off her truck, so it's negligible.

We leave tommorrow for Pennsylvania for the weekend. Lisa's family has Christmas the Saturday before the actual holiday, so everyone is free to do what they want on the actual holiday, with less stressors regarding who wants their time and where. Leaving at lunch time, and will get there around dinner time.

After that, it's just next week, then that's it until after the first of the year -- I'm taking the first week in January off, too. Hopefully I'll be able to get that darned blanket finished up, once and for all! I won't likely post much during that time, as I try to make it a point to not be on the computer so much at home, but I'll still be reading your blogs and commenting, from time to time.

Sorry everyone's having such a hard time with comments on the beta version. Second biggest mistake of my life, switching over to the beta version. If I didn't have so much time and "stuff" invested here, I'd seriously consider moving to another provider.

And may still........


  • At 12/15/2006 3:45 PM, Blogger Bob said…

    The biggest single factor that I will not cross the country to move in w/ my latino hottie is that I have a damn good job that I know I cannot find anywhere else. They pay me TWICE what I was making as a certified medical assistant. I get 2 weeks paid vacation, plus 10 additional paid holidays per year. They pay ALL of my health insurance premium. Not a cent comes out of my check. They gave me stock options. At the time they gave me 3000 shares of stock, it was worth $30,000. I have to wait 3 more years to be fully vested but I can wait!!!

    The hours are flexible as to when I can come in and when I can leave. As long as I put in my 40 hours they don't really care when. We don't punch a time card.
    I've been here two years as a full-time employee and received a 5% raise each December. Plus a Christmas bonus.

    So... yeah.... that is why I stay. I'd be an idiot not to.

  • At 12/16/2006 5:33 PM, Blogger SassyFemme said…

    8-4 and out the door... Never heard that phrase before, but it fits! If they're not giving you the extra help, you can't stay and let them think you can do it all.

    Hope you're enjoying the family time!


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